Cry Blog

Another 2 more weeks, i will be free. Free from what?? Free from my Teaching Practical in SMK Telok Kumbar Penang. Free from USM, i think so. I have finished my 4 years course in Science Educational Studies that time..

Teaching Practical (LM) makes me realised a lot of stuff that other people won’t know if they never teach in a school! All said that teaching profession is a  "Gold  Rice Bowl" in nowadays.  I am not denying it as it is true. A fresh graduate can have a salary around RM2800 (included all the allowances) when they start to work. And all said that teachers can have a lot of Holiday in a year and the working hours are very short. So, most of the parents would encourage their children to apply the Educational Studies course to secure a job in future. Well, for my advise is ‘if you think u do not like teaching, please, DO NOT become a Teacher! Because you will regret and you would only bring HARM to the students!!!!!’ Agree??

School hours: For 2 session school, school starts at 720 am and ends around 1.00pm. But if there is additional classes for PMR, SPM and STPM class, then it would probably end around 230pm. For 1 session school, school starts at 720am and normally end around 240pm. But my LM school, Monday and Tuesday end at 320pm, Wed at 240pm, thurs at 200pm (if no meeting. if got meeting, around 300 - 330pm) and fri at 12pm. So, if school have meeting, you will probably end around 3pm. So, it depend the school u get. For my LM school, i have to work for around 7 to 8 hours except friday. Don’t forget, the above is for Curiculum hours. We still have CO-curiculum!!!

The above hours is ONLY use for ‘P and P’ (Learning and Teaching). A teacher’s job is NOT ONLY P and P. You have to incharge of some Co-curiculum as well: Badan Beruniform, SUkan dan Permainan and Kelab dan Persatuan. U cannot run away from it!! If you are LUCKY, you get to bring students to go out and compete in games and all sort of activities (may be for a whole day~~~). Lucky??? Besides that, you have to stay in school after P and P to train your students, esp in sports. In additional, you will also have other than what i mentioned above. For example, incharge for Library, Prefects, Rumah Sukan, Guru Tingkatan, Bilik Komputer and so on.. You CANNOT run away from it!

Opps, forget to say about P and P. Answer the following question 1st: Do you think Teaching or providing your knowledge to students are Easy Job?? Answer for YES: If your students are those Smarties and hardworking, yeah, your job will be very very easy. But, it will also be very challenging as they may question you a lot of stuff that u may not realise b4 but also some weird2 stuff as they think too complicated!! You have to prepare yourself well. Answer for NO: If your students are those lazy type or slow learner or not interested in studies, your job will be very tiring and very challenging. SOme said very easy, cos they won’t ask you many questions and will be less tension. Well, it is but you will know later, mentally and physically tired! When you are fresh, you have all sort of imaginary about teaching; you get to help students to know better, strike ‘A’ for exam and so so on. Well, i can say that i bring a 100% spirits to the school to teach. Now, my spirits only left about 40%. Students have DEmoralised me! I m not saying they are bad. But their passion in studies are quite low and their attitude in learning making me feel so sad. I cannot say all the teachers are like me. But there are quite a lot feel what i feel.

Here comes my question: Will i be able to become a Teacher for the whole life??? Is teaching profession my only career??? High salary, lots of holiday, short working hours, are they attracted to you??? Now i only know why there SHOULD have a lot of holiday. Because it needed to maintain teacher’s spirits and let them to mentally and physically rest in those holiday! Teaching is not like what you think, easy job? NO, definitely NO! If you want to comment on Teacher or Teaching Profession, you will have to 1st ‘taste’ or get some Teaching experiences first b4 YOU SAID THAT THIS IN AN EASY JOB! You will know what a Teacher’s have to face and their pressure! But if you just treat it as a job, only a money searcher for u, i suggest you DON’T join this profession. You will only Harm the students as this job require High Responsibility!

Well well, to all the Senior Teachers, i really SALUTE you all. Now only i realised what is a TEACHER. For a FRESHY like me, there are lots for me to think…. Well well, i am going to be jobless in 2 weeks time. Ha… For the moment waiting for my posting and convocation, i will need to think2 and have a long break after LM.

Gambate!!!

早上好！！6。50AM我就已起身，不是睡不着而是约了朋友去跑步。可是，他们到现在还在睡觉！！哈哈。。所以呢，我都起身啦，就在着无聊的写几句吧！

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新年快乐！！2006年一去，到来的是新的2007年，生活上应该要有新的规划咯。是这样吗？？就是:"NeW yEaR, nEw HoPe". 那。。。久的希望该如何呢？？可能就好想做账吧，把剩下的待到下一月份，继续努力。那。。久希望都还没实现完，哪。。该有些什么新希望呢？？真是烦恼哦。。。=D

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人家所说时间一眨眼就过了，不过时间真的要过了，当我们看回从前才会觉得一眨眼就过了啦！如果现在还是现在，不管你眨多少次眼他还是现在呀！哈哈。。第三年咯，回想起第一次离开家，来到了一个完全陌生又遥远的地方读书，真的是一个很好地回忆和经验。虽然已开始时是孤身作战，不过经过漂亮的一战，满满的也迎来了好多很好的朋友！哈~~好多次我都觉得我是幸运的因为能结交到各种各样很多很‘棒’的朋友。可能是我人好吧，所以。。。哈哈。。。快来做我的朋友哦！！嘻嘻~~

Hmmm…还没说我今年的希望哦！！其实也很简单，就是希望家人，朋友和of coz自己呀都身体健健康康，每天都快快乐乐，事事都顺顺利利，梦想一个一个地实现和永远幸福快乐！！这样应该都不难吧！！哈哈哈哈~~当然，这也不是只靠我就能做到的，还是要靠大家自己努力咯！！至于我的新一年的新计划呢，也没什么看头啦，就不在此都写啦。。哈~~ "NeW yEaR, nEw HoPe"？？!=p

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haih…都8.00am了，还是没醒来。我看这跑步呀是要被取消咯。。嗨。。next time lo…

Hmm…今天miss了两堂课，因为肚子有点不舒服啦！哈~~ 我是怎么了呢？其实也没什么了，只是从中发现了一些事。人的思想真的有时好脆弱哦，很容易被一些事，话所影响。虽然说自己的思想由自己控制，不过外来的因素也很容易影响自己对一些的看法，判断。Hmm..该怎么说呢？应该可以这么说吧；我开始怀疑别人对我的看法，建议。这到底是我怀疑他们的真诚，还是我不相信我自己呢？？以前的我从来都没这么想过，可能是我不把它当作一回事吧，有或许我拥有一般很值得我信赖的朋友，伙伴们。。

我其实我并不是这么喜欢这样的自己。别人可能真的是真心地对待，给与看法，我却又带着怀疑的心态，我是怎么了呀？人与人的相处真的。。（不知如何形容。哈~）就像；相信他，又怕被被判，不相信他，怀疑猜测又好可怕。哎呀，好像讲得太严重了。总的来说，就是很难去了解到底一个人是不是真心对待或者自己因该如何分析啦。相信和不相信就两个选择，有这么难吗？？=p

当然，我还是相信我的朋友。哈哈~~好啦，就这么多。等下还要去上课呢。哈~傻傻的！=p

我是怎么了？？！眼眶开始湿湿了，但是还是没掉下来。看了哥写的一些东西‘感触’特别深。对呀，没有她就不会有今天的我们。她的教导，鼓励，支持和一切的一切我都很感激。谢谢你，姑。我不是一个感性的人，不善于对自己的家里人说感性的话。但是，我是真的真得很高兴我们是一家人。谢谢你们。。。

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我到底是怎么了？考试即将到来，可是，我心却不能集中。上个学期已如此，所以才跑了回家。这学期又如何呢？我觉得好累，好无聊。。。好像失去了推动力。要说是因为忙，我又觉得不是。毕竟我还有时间做别的事。我真的不知道为什么会这样！希望考试越近，心就会越集中吧。。。

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我又怎么了呢？？一个人为什么会转变的这么快？？对待别人不能以真正的自己吗？？为什么要带上这么多的面具呢？？不会觉得很累吗？？和平相处，努力一起为共同的‘目标’奋斗，不好吗？？为什么不试着了解彼此，忍让彼此的缺点，一起努力呢？？为什么要做出这么多伤人及误会的事呢？？容忍真的是件很难的事吗？？彼此包容，谅解真的有那么辛苦吗？？自己所付出的一切只是为了让别人赏识和要让别人知道自己做了，牺牲了很多而不是因为自己愿意的吗？？让别人知道自己付出了很多真的这么重要吗？？不是因为想做，想和大伙们享受一起努力奋斗的感觉而付出的吗？？我真的真得很不了解这是为什么！！我真得真的很伤心，很失望。。。

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我是怎么了呀？？这种感觉越来越强烈。曾经，让我感觉是个温暖及开心的‘第三个家’，去了哪里？？每次去到总有一种越来越陌生的感觉，不想在里面多留一下。就是因为这样，我不常去了。只有必要的时候才会逗留比较久。以前的那些快乐时光好像已找不回来，只能永远留在心中和记忆里。天下没有不散的宴席，这一切一切的美好回忆将会留在我心里。。。

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现在是傍晚六点钟。我是怎么了？？昨晚没睡好，刚才在开会的时候还觉得很累呢。现在这么那么精神呀？？天气这么凉快，应开是个好睡的时候吧！！哈~~ ~~ ‘我是怎么了呢？’。。。。。。。。。。。。。

congratulations….my team won the archery competition in SUKAD (Sukan Antara Desasiswa)…heehee..Phew…it wasnt really an easy win.. 1st day, we were shooting a 30 meter distance. well, luckily, we were leading with 80++ marks more than the 2nd team. and my personal result is 199/360, rank 6 among 32 contestants and each person has to shoot total 36 arrows. for a newcomer like me, i tink i m really hapi n satisfied with my performances. Don laugh o!! if u tink is easy, go ahead and shoot. See how is ur result!!=p

for the 2nd day, is the 20 meter distance. as usual, each person has to shoot 36 arrows. well, my team is 60++ marks behind tat 2nd team for tis 20 meter distance. Luckily, the grand total (30m + 20m) of our team is still the highest, 20 marks more than the 2nd group. phew, its really very near.haha.. and for my personal result (total) is 391(199 +192), overall rank 7. well, alto i m not quite satisfied with my 20m performance, but it is still better than my usual trainings. all i can say is tat, i had try my best in every arrows i have shooted.

las but not least….YAHOO!!!!We Were The Champion!!!=p

After coming back from the 1 week break, my godness, all my ‘lovely & cutie’ saturday and sunday gone!! From 1st Sept to 3rd Sept, i was goin to Cameron Highland. Well, u may tink i m goin 4 holiday, but WRONG!!! It was a field trip, compulsory for all BBT302 student. It is quite fun bcos v can visit a lot of place with beautiful scenary with a big ‘Bunch’ of frens. 1st day we went to Cactus Valley, then FAMA. There are realy a lot of cacti, some even as old as 70 years old. For FAMA, v look at the way they grade tomatoes into different size. Nex day, v went to MARDI and Boh Tea Plantation. Mardi is really a nice place to visit. It has a lot of vegetations, fruits and flowers and also beautiful buildings and structure to take photo. There also got a lot of strawberry and sold at rm5 per pack. But, the most delicious one is the strawberry ice-cream. Wow, really nice!! Yum~~~ haha… Boh Plantation…wow…tired man. bcos our bus cant drive up to the factory (road very narrow), so v have to walk up there (i tink v hav walk for 3km or may b more). so tiring n cold to die!ha. bcos it is raining. i really feel hard to breath wif my nose. but, the scenery is beautiful with a very organize and nice tea plant. as we getting up the hill, the scenery is superb!! really nice!!"ICHIBAN"..Its worth visit there!! For the last day, v went to the Aked Peladang, Kea Market, Strawberry Park and Butterfly Farm. Mostly, it bring us to buy somethings before going back Pg. That’s how i spend this two sat and sun. It may be Fun…but the NOT FUN part come after this. We have to do a Report on this trip. Is not an ordinary report like u write about the trip only. bcos tis paper is called ‘Botani Ekonomi’, v have to write more details and specific, eg wat latest method or system use in farming=Fertigation and so on. Then, monday come and class as usual.

The past ‘lovely & cutie’ sat and sun also gone again!! Tis time is the field work for BOM112, Ekologi Asas. Sat, i went to Pulau Jerejak, near Pg here. It was once the jail located but now is developed into a resort. v went there to do for Forest and Coastal sampling. The place is beautiful but the beach is very dirty, full of rubbish. One of the guide said that tis island is given to the authority (the hotel) fully incharge by the goverment, but i wonder y they din clean up the beach instead of letting them to be dirty! Haih… It was a good xperience for me. v learn how to use many instrument.eg, clinometer to measure the ‘kecerunan’ of the place, wailing hygrometer to measure the temperature and humidity, lux meter to measure the intensity of the light and so on. really nice…so, where my sun go rite??hah, tis field trip din end like tat. i still nid to do for grassland and lake sampling. tis was done on sunday in USM. tis was fun too. i went into the ‘parit besar’ to do some measurement wif two of the frens. I cant believe it tat i volunteer to do it. hah, but since tis is for xperience, i do it anyway. really unbelievable.=p tats how i finish the sat and sun. today as usual, went for a whole day class. tired..

the coming sat still got another field trip. Again, is for BBT302. v are going to Tasik Gelugor, at Seberang Perai from morning to afternoon. Then on Sunday, i got Sukad (Sukan Antara Desasiswa) for the archery, also for a whole day..phew..

See, continuously, my sat and sun gone!!b4 tat, most of my sat and sun gone for St John’s activity and also Farming (bayam merah). I like those outdoor activities very much rather than Lab work. but, continously is really a tiring job!! Plus, weekday still got classes, presentation, tutorial and so on…

With all those activities, tis semester really going very fast. In a month time, study week is coming. Then we will have the final exam for tis sem. Hopefully, everythings will be smooth and good..Jiayou~~

the past sunday, 20th August 06 was the las day of usm convocation.. well, i tink the las year convo is much better and more stalls to shop. tis time, i tink there were lesser shop for us to see and shop. i tink they may have cut down the stalls amount. thus, the rental is more expensive and this lead to expensive stuffs!! haha..well, i still tink it is fun anyway bcos our st john has rent a stall in this convo. unlike the las year, we hav cancel tis program all bcos of some internal and external problems. ha.. we were selling fruits juice, ice blended, ice cream, rojak and so on.. the business was quite ok especially when we begin to sell cupocino blended. so, tis sunday was the las day we can do the business. thus, we were so so so do our very best to sell out all our foods. we did good, ard 9, 10++ pm we only left a little little bit of fruits and ice cream. so, we sell the things wif cheaper price and we started to yell, like wat u see in pasar malam la..haha, tis is the fun part i enjoyed. we were all shout to promote the foods we have and keep telling or persuade the customer to buy!! we did it!! we had sold all the foods we can sell..and finally we can close our stall. den we saw the TNC coming to Tapak Convo and so, we request to have a photo wif him. haha.. it is truly a wonderful nite and memories to me. and as a gift to me as i was quite dissapointed tats las year, when i was an exco, we din organize tis. so now, no more dissapoinmen, no more regret…only happy memories~~

Yuppie, v finally no nid to go to water the plant in early morning and evening. V hav harvest our child, our red spinach. it was unbelievable, so so many of them!! v pluck n pluck, den put aside, there were so so many already but still a lot on the soil.. wah, v really do hav a big harvesting season. heeheehee… the total weight 4 all our spinach is 29.5 kg!! there’s so muc that v nid others’ helps to bring it back!! haha.. n i cook some 4 dinner..and its taste nice yo..heeheehee..=p

v din spray any insecticides to our plant but v do put for once the snail’s ‘racun’, jus around the ‘bed’ as there is an attack from the snails. haha.. but its reali true. tats y our baby got save. but there r some groups kip spraying insecticides. i tink they may hav misunderstood the instructor’s instructions. i reali don know y dey do it. act, we should learn to choose the more natural way rather than using insecticides. then, v r the 1 who should let the public aware of the negatives effect of using insecticides and encourage them not to use, n is not we r learning to use tat so so often!! haih, i tink the worst things in most graduates is they only care about their grade!! and tats all!! well, i hope i will not be one of them!!haha, i wil try my bez ya…=p

1st of all, i wan to thanks my parent for giving birth to me on the 26th June 1984. Thanks for taking good care of me for 22 years, giving me all the best they can afford and made me who i m 2day.. thanks, ah pa and ah ma~~~and too, all my siblings; big bro, little sis and bro…it is great that we were born in a same family. and, my grandma and aunt too, for taking care 4 me when mum and dad were going out to work…

2ndly, i was grateful that i was born in the year 1984 and going through a wonderful moment in primary, secondary, tertiary education. i would like to thanks to all my friends for giving me a wonderful and sweet memories during the secondary. i still remember we didnt differentiate among us, no matter we were in what class, A, B, C, D, E, or anytin. so, it looks like the whole building (the 3 floors building) is ours!! den we 2geter organize activities for society, The Chinese Society. its really fun. the most memorable moment is the Show: ‘2000 zhi tien’. we really decorate ourself into weird weird character and i m the ‘Lau Lau’, wearing black nails make by the plastic bottle and make my face all white in color using the powder!! hah, tats really an unforgetable show.footdrill, 10s 4 u al to be wif me, under the hot hot sun to practise after school. well, we may not be the best but we did do our best. other outings like yumcha, gathering, movie and so so on make me feel that friendships are really a longlasting things as long as u really treasure it..

usm, a place really far away from home..but now, no…i found 2 homes here; St John and my home here. i was grateful that i hav chosen St John as my activities bcos i really learn a lot here, not only the 1st aid but also the management of activities, relationships and so on. and i found new and good friends and activity partner here. well, it may b tiring work but we have to enjoy the fun part of it. hmm, i can say that i really enjoy it!! beside st john, i also found good coursemate, roomate and housemates. i m really a lucky girl. i met all sort of good people here that can share my point of view, go have fun, gossiping, laughing and so on..

so, i wanna to thanks all of them. Who?? if u think u r my friend(s), den u r 1 of the person that i wanna to say ‘Thanks’…"People must be thankful to all they have.so, treasure it b4 u regret!" =)

las thursday, 3rd aug, we really started the archery. b4 tat, v only learn types of bow and arrow, rules, method to prepare a bow. now we really start shooting! nervous n xcited is wat i feel b4 shoot. plus, i m afraid tat i will shoot my hand too!! haha. tis is bos, if ur hand’s position is incorrect, u sure will taste the result for not practising ur basic well!! n i was really really busy la, tat i din really practise my basic very well. But, i was quite good for my 1st time. all arrow din shoot GREEN (tis mean shooting to the grass) but all was on the board! my best performance is 9marks!! haha… but v are shooting in a distance of 10metres only!! our practical will be 30 meters.but, i oso got bruising on my hand! haih, shoot 6 times, 2 times the string hit my hand and got ‘oh che’… but don wori, use ice application lo..it help it recover faster..hehe….

today is the 2nd day we shoot. still 10 metre, but shoot 16 arrows. i was so tired cos i got class from 9am to 5pm and after tat directly go 4 archery. i oso shoot my hand, and got brusing again!!haih….but, use ice application really good. it heals faster but only apply for the 1st day, the day u get hurt only…and my instructor said don apply any oilment cos it will bcome black!!

alto tat, is really fun to learn archery. u can imagine tat u r Robinhood when giving a shoot! stunning ya!!!hahaha………